I’ve experienced a lot of pissing people off lately. I shouldn’t care. I do care. Maybe I should care more. I don’t know. I’ve pissed off a neighbor. Called their beliefs stupid. Told them they could learn from me or continue to sit in their empty apartment and blow dudes. I don’t know what is wrong with me. I don’t like this version of myself. I love it too.
I have experienced being such an asshole, I get blocked.
I have experienced being close to someone who so rubs me the wrong way I feel it necessary to insult them to their face.
Why can’t I just focus on what I can control? Why am I so concerned with misalignment? Why??
It’s only hurting me.
I’m not being apologized to. None of my words make any difference. I don’t need apology. I just need to be left alone. I’m only going to hurt you if you get close to me. If you cross my boundary. If you take your beliefs and try to explain them and I’m so against you that I call you dumb. That’s my go to. That’s my only move. I don’t have the cerebral power at that moment to try to find fact. The only fact is you’re dumb, illogical, & wrong.
I’m sorry. You deserve to feel how you feel. You do not deserve to make anyone else feel bad for their beliefs. (Talking to myself).
Funny though. Nothing ever changed with subjectivity. Jesus didn’t say, “Well, believe what you want to believe. It’s ok.”
Kennedy didn’t say “Ask not what your country can do for you, ask maybe if you want to, do something for your country when you feel like it.”
FDR didn’t say “The only thing we have left to fear is everything that’s scary!”
Lincoln didn’t say “It is rather for us to be here dedicated to the great task remaining before us, that from these honored dead we take increased devotion to that cause for which they gave the last full measure of devotion, that we here highly resolve that these dead shall not have died in vain, that this nation, under God, shall have a new birth of freedom, and that government of the people, by the people, for the people, shall not perish from the earth. If that’s alright with you.”
Exit sidebar…
It’s permanent. There’s no getting back into someone’s life when I do this. They have to be forgiving. I do this to unforgiving people exclusively. I’d be thoroughly surprised if anyone ever came back to me after what I’ve done.
Actually. A couple have come back. We don’t discuss triggers anymore. I don’t like this solution. I tried to listen to them, but in the end the discernment between levels of evil was enough for me to say, I don’t want to talk about it. The couple that forgave are still with me. In fact, they are more important to me now than they were before. I see they fight. They feel. They aren’t bad people. I never thought they were. I feel the thing is mostly not their fault despite how they’ve believed conspiracy.
January 6th wasn’t infiltrated with people against the fight (i.e. “lefties”) to make the “peaceful” side look bad. That is on the level of conspiracy that would rival the following scenario.
Everyone is watching the Rodney King trial in 1992.
The not guilty verdict is called.
People who believe the police were innocent, take to the streets. They scream and yell and set things on fire. They cause chaos! Remember, these are the people that got what they wanted. They make LA look like a war zone. Why? Because they want the “other side” to look bad.