Blog post

I find it very common that at the first sign of bad behavior in the eyes of the opposite gender you are immediately shut down from any further communication. And you can’t call it out. You can’t say. Hey that’s an unfair assessment. You can say. Maybe you have to accept a little bit to get what you want. I’m not a bad man. But I have been rejected over and over due to an infraction that I thought well it’s time for that behavior now or I was nervous ans had three beers instead of two. I don’t get it. Do you want perfection? If you’re looking for bad behavior it’s not difficult to find in me or anyone else. I’m basically done trying. No more. I’ll enjoy my friends. I’ll pack my crap and say no more dating in 2025. Don’t say that’s a good thing either. Not your call or judgement and your opinion doesn’t matter. Please. I love you. But it’s not fair to tell someone looking for connection that it’ll come when you least expect it. Or if it’s meant to be. Bullcrap. There’s effort and there’s apathy. That’s apathy. That’s something. But it certainly isn’t what I consider an effective balance of value and confidence. I did so much in my marriage. I was not appreciated for it and I was told it wasn’t enough. Then the resentment built up. Like she built it. I didn’t. Shit. She’s got problems too.